April, 2011 Update: This journey has not been about weight loss for me. It's been about feeling better about myself. And through CrossFit, I have learned that is ok to be great.
It's ok to be competitive and have fun at the same time. I feel like I get it now. I have been afraid to push myself because I was worried I would fail. I thought if I didn't try; Icouldn't fail. So I rarely tried. But, I try at CrossFit! It has opened up new things for me that I would have never attempted before. Do a 100 lb shoulder press? Never. Do a dead hang pull up? Never. Be on the leader board for anything? Never. But, I have accomplished all of those and more. I have a new confidence and "can't" is quickly leaving my vocabulary.
I am learning about nutrition and what is good for my body. And I know that I can deadlift the weight of a grown man (or two!) and have a cute manicure to boot! CrossFit has been the ONLY thing that I have stuck with for more than a few months.
It's been a year and a half now and I have never felt better. I am truly happy to be a part of the CrossFit community. I now have a new outlook on life. Just try to stop me:)
March, 2011: I have never been skinny. So that hasn't been a goal for me. My goals were to feel good about myself and to be comfortable in my skin. So, 2 years ago I wrote a list. My list was called "Reasons Not To Eat That". Some of the things on my list were: I want to buy clothes with no X in front of the size; I don't want people asking me if I'm pregnant anymore (NO I'M NOT!!); I want to walk, jog and run without being out of breath and I want to take pictures and like what I see.
I am proud to say, because of Crossfit, I have checked off ALL of those things on my list! I am so appreciative of Paula and this program. I crave the classes! I sweat. And it feels great! This challenge has changed me. I am doing things I never thought I could do. And I feel strong!!
There are more things on my list that I have to work on and I know I have a long journey ahead of me. But, there is no turning back. And it feels really good to have come this far.